Monday, 9 December 2013


RAPE - "A Curse for Life"

(COMING SOON)...





When a girl's life is ruined, it brings about a curse... A curse which she either refuses to live with just to die or perhaps which she accepts to live with only to die a slow death...

In a world in which we talk about gender equality and women empowerment, the truth is bitter and hard to be believed...

No matter how much a man respects the other gender, but if only a moment can change the beliefs and the perspectives, then certainly it’s not only a curse for the victim, but is for all of us rather, A Curse for Life...

Friday, 4 October 2013

A Dark Change...


Life to the Dark...






Of the darkness within,
A trail continues with life,
A trail of lies,
A trail of disguise,
Shadows seems to fade,
In a new moon night,
Nothing seems to be,
The witness of the twilight,
Apart from the one,
Soul residing inside,
When the beginning,
Turns to an end,
Still remains is a hope,
A hope for the change,
A change for betterment,
Towards a new life,
Towards a fresh horizon,
Leaving behind the dusk,
To pave way for the dawn,
To a tomorrow of dreams,
To the desires unexplored,
When there would be a change,
And the change would be you!



Friday, 20 September 2013

A Valley called Life...






A valley called life...






Life is a valley,
With the dark inside,
Prevailing with silence,
In a hope for tomorrow,
Giving life to the dreams,
Dreams which never came true,
Still existing somewhere in mind,
To witness the other side,
To conquer the light,
And to surrender the dark,
Walking through the extreme,
In the fields not known,
To the extent of being,
To be or not be…

Sunday, 18 August 2013

Life in a Metro...




Life in a Metro...

Day 4, Thursday...


With different experiences for the first three days of the week, from the exhaustible journey to the encounters of love, I had it all. Till now, life had never been so random before. Travelling in ‘Metro’ itself gives your life a different dimension altogether where your short span of journey may consists of lifelong learning. And if you are still left with your share, then we have our own ‘Metro’ city, DELHI to enthrall us with its naive yet complicated charm each time.


   It was ‘4’ in the morning when the phone started ringing. Ignored initially but I ended up switching the phone off as it kept on ringing. After a tiring and exhausting journey, it is not easy to wake up from sleep which we hardly get these days. But even after the phone was set off, the restlessness was still there.  Eyes weren’t open but the curiosity didn't let the peace to prevail and apprehensive mind kept on hovering on different possibilities. After exhausting almost all the apprehensions, I finally woke up with frustration and anger. Set the phone on and all of a sudden the anger and frustration turned into euphoria. It was my childhood school friend who called up after a long time.


We all breathe in such a fast paced life that we don’t get the time to meet ourselves even, so friends, family, relatives and everyone connected to us becomes secondary. We forget or perhaps refuse to remember our own identity, the purpose of our survival and succumb to this life as the way it comes. Not to blame ourselves, we don’t have a choice    but even if we would have, we prefer to overlook the options. And for some who overlook and try to step off the hierarchy, meets with the ego which restricts them to initiate, to initiate by their own.


“We all prefer to be loved rather than rendering the same”


  As I firmly believe that we all are remembered not for the way we were but for the choices we made. So, I chose to be the way I am now. I immediately called him back.


Post completion of school, he moved to Bangalore and it was rare that we used to meet and whenever we did, it used to be for a few hours. And owing to the habits which this life let an individual develop, we also become habitual of the same lately. When we could share our sorrows, our joys, our lives with each other, we used to discuss the way our organization works, the position we possess, the flexibility in the work environment and all the formal things. It’s not that we did not wanted to talk, we did want to, but the sense of togetherness was lost. We used to talk but only for the purpose of it. We had forgotten ourselves, our individuality and became a follower of the league which we never supposed to.


I called him back. He picked up and asked if we could meet. He was supposed to leave the same evening. I was really happy and the moment I was about to say a ‘yes’, I realized that it was a client meet that day and most importantly, I was leading that project.  I informed the same to him but I really wanted to meet. Sometimes, life renders such moments which give momentarily happiness making you realize  the importance of things but when you get attached and begin to perceive in that manner, all it seems as a bluff.


  Getting a call from my friend to meet up after a long time was supposed to be a cherishing moment but like always, destiny again restricted my pathways. I was already upset after almost getting disturbed with the ring of the phone call and then there was this plan which got haywire. No one wishes such a disturbed morning. It was 5:00 by the time it all happened. Neither I could sleep, nor could I get ready to go to office then. Still laid on the bed with no peace in mind and then the restlessness prevailed.


After starting the day on a disgusted note, it seemed so dull. And to add to the woes was the routine which desirably or undesirably became a part of my life. Followed it as usual, had breakfast and departed for office. I resembled an irritated duckling. When I tried to enter the bus, there were people who didn't let me enter. Frustrated with the things, I end up shouting on the crowd. I furiously hired an auto-rickshaw to reach to the Metro station. The fare was almost ten times the fare of bus. Another issue faced by Metro cities. The Public Transport buses are either not on time or are jam packed where you can’t even imagine entering. As a result, the Auto-Rickshaw drivers take full advantage of the crisis cheating public to an extent where it end up falling prey to all these malpractices.


“Life in a metro has a virtue of colors of which mostly are the shades of black”


It is rightly said, your surroundings reflect whatever you feel. The environment seemed dull as I was feeling low. I boarded the ‘Metro’ train with all the projections for client meeting in mind. Till this time, it was clear that I would not be meeting my friend. But as always, no matter how hard you try, whatever has to happen have to happen... Fate dominates the reality. ‘You never get more than what is yours and not before the time is right.’


  A couple entered on one of the station. They seemed to be in a hurry. The husband requested a man to give the seat to his wife as she was pregnant and expecting a child soon. But as there is god, there is devil. The city comprises of people who are always ready to help, and there also are the ones who never help, yet another flavor of the ‘Metro’ city. The man didn't give her the seat. Moreover, he advised the husband to take her to the first coach, which is reserved for ladies despite of knowing her condition. Metro cities commonly witness people who are always up for ‘free’ advice but when it comes to helping others, they prefer to handover the pleasure to others.


And while all this was happening, ‘Metro’ stopped with strong breaks amidst two stations. Mobile network also lost the coverage. We were totally stuck and amongst the most affected was the pregnant lady. She started getting labor pains. She was weeping out loud. On one hand, it was ‘Metro’ which stopped and it was the suffering lady on the other. ‘Metro’ was resounded by her screams. At one point, everyone felt helpless. The worst part was to see her husband seeking for help, crying out, asking everyone if something could be done...


  This day was the worst day ever witnessed in a ‘Metro’. But what happened afterwards turned the worst into best. Little did we know in our lives that there still are people who care for the fellow humans, for their lives. Believe it as the presence of God or regard it as any supernatural energy but there was something which made all of us realize that miracles do happen.


There was a middle aged woman who came out to help her. She asked everyone to move to a different coach except for a few other women who could help. Some of them covered her with a cloth and that lady carried out the delivery. While all this happened, I witnessed something which we hardly encounter these days. Almost everyone in ‘Metro’ was praying for the safety of that lady and her newborn.


AND A FEW MINUTES LATER...


The ‘Metro’ resounded with the cries of the infant. The lady spoke aloud, “We got a baby boy”. That was a sigh of relief for all of us and especially for the father. He burst into tears thanking all the people who helped. There was calmness and peace which prevailed all across the ‘Metro’. Amidst all this, I forgot my frustration completely and was rather involved with the emotions of the people who I didn't even know. Same would be the case for many other as well.


  We all are humans and there is a human in all of us. Preference is an option. We all ignore to choose the human living in us. That day, we all chose humanity above all. The reward was to see a family united, a father’s peaceful smile, a mother’s joy and an infant cries. Though the reward doesn't seem to have a value, but this reward was simply priceless and incomparable.


Metro staff informed the doctors on the arriving station. The fault was corrected and the services resumed again. Metro finally reached to a station after getting stuck for almost an hour. And then an announcement was made, “The baby boy who took birth in a ‘Metro’ is declared to be the Mascot for Delhi ‘Metro’. “Metro rumbled with a big applaud. This experience, this journey became exhilarating for all of us.


  And finally the mobile network also began to work. As soon as it got into range, the phone again started ringing. It was a call from the office. Whenever you know you have been called by your boss, it certainly is not a good feeling especially when you know that you are late to office.  I picked the call and began to give an explanation to the boss. Whatever he said, was also once in a while experience. Generosity is not his cup of tea, but he was generous that day.

Me: - Hello Boss! Good Morning! I am really sorry. This Metro! I am really pissed off now. Their services again collapsed today.

He: - Yeah! I know. It’s getting worse with more and more people opting for it. I also reached the office late today. Anyways, the meeting got canceled.

Me: - What? How it got canceled? It was an important meeting for the clients.
He: - Clients also got late and then postponed the meeting. At least, Metro is helpful to some of us.

(We both burst into laugh but the moment when you get to know that your boss is also late is surely a peaceful feeling and I can vouch for it!)

Me: - Alright Boss! That sounds really good. I was tensed (though I was not).

He: - That’s OK!  You may take an off today. Tomorrow is another important review. Prepare for it.

Me: - Oh! Thank you so much Boss!

He: - OK then! See you at review tomorrow.

Me: - Sure Boss! Thank you once again. Bye.

Whenever you desperately need something, you usually don’t get it but the moment you lose the hope of getting it, you get it. Life though ironical is nothing less than a fictional thriller in which you can never determine what the end would be until it arrives.


  The moment he asked me to stay back and take a leave, I called my friend and to all my surprise he was still there in the city. I boarded the ‘Metro’ again to meet him to rejuvenate all the bonds which got strong with tides of time...


And that concludes the journey which started on a dull note. All our life, we mostly spend our time thinking what could have been possibly true and what we could have done. We always strive for betterment and that is something which we always aim for, but there is no end to this search of betterment. And, we compromise or learn to compromise what we have despite of its utmost importance. It’s not that we don’t realize, the sense of realization is always there but there always lies a preference, a preference which we all opt for.


“Life in a Metro” is a journey which not only reflects important aspects towards an individual’s journey of life but also helps to differentiate the preference. A preference can change an individual’s life.


“Life in a Metro is a never ending tale which began just to continue forever”




Sunday, 12 May 2013

Soul of God...

Soul of God

 I came to this world,
With a destiny less known,
In a life given by you,
With a belief less shown,
To all the care,
To all the words,
To all the emotions,
To the things you shared,
But you were there,
Each and every time,
To hold when I fell,
To give what I lost,
To console when I was sad,
To pamper when I was happy,
You rendered a heaven,
With all your blessings,
And the love inside you,
Without expectations of return,
You have always been,
A moon in blue,
In the ups and downs,
In the lows and the highs,
In every victory and each defeat,
You stood in each moment through,
Giving me the momentum to pace,
Giving me the stability to face,
The unknown risks in life,
To let me walk,
The trodden paths less traveled,
Mere words are not enough,
To thank you for,
Everything you have done,
Such is the aura,
Of your presence in my life...

-Shantanu Sunil Saxena

Sunday, 3 February 2013

Life in a Metro...


Day 3, Wednesday...



Two days of the week have passed away already... The first two days were almost exhaustible and irritable... Whatever happened was unexpected and whatsoever was in the womb of time for Day three was also not expected then.

 Till Day two came to an end, I already understood that Life in a Metro is neither that easy to be traveled nor that easy to be lived but as each of us know that life is full of surprises and shocks, you might now know what’s on the other end.

I woke up to a new and a beautiful morning... Although it was a beautiful morning, still there were certain things which were differentiating it with other mornings. Usually, I didn't use to hear the chirruping of the sparrows nearby the window of my room... The morning tea was much tastier than it used to be... The weather also was so good, which the city doesn't encounter usually... All this can be regarded as a shear co-incidence but I believe that whenever “Beauty of the nature is in the perspective of an individual, you can always rule out the co-incidences and can always give second thoughts to the superstitions held within.”

 The experience of the entire morning was exhilarating... It was beautiful yet different... There was uniqueness in the pattern of this morning... After seeking and getting a feel of all these mesmerizing things of the morning, I again started the day afresh... Took bath, had breakfast and departed timely for office... Till this time, I was anyhow habitual of getting into a bus or any public transport vehicle... So, struggled a bit and to my surprise, got an auto-rickshaw early... While I was on the way to the ‘Metro’ Station, I was really happy and it was clearly visible on my face... And as we generally say, ‘what you give is what you get’... Similarly, the surroundings were also reflecting the same happiness to me which already was evident through my face.

I reached the ‘Metro’ Station and went inside. It was crowded as usual but somehow the crowd today was moving with ease. While moving onto the platform, there was a girl who walked past by me. She walked so fast that she crossed and almost pushed me... I then stood in the queue waiting for the ‘Metro’ Rail to arrive at the ‘Metro’ Station. The ‘Metro’ arrived at the platform... As it is widely known among the Delhi ‘Metro’ Commuters, that once the doors get open, if you want to acquire a seat for yourself, don’t wait for the queue to move in... So, the crowd which was standing in the queue pushed each other to move inside the coach and to secure a seat...
 When I got pushed in, I also tried to secure a seat and after all the failed attempts, I preferred to give up and rather to stand throughout the journey...  I came to a stable position to stand nearby the door... And this was when I realized that the girl who walked past by me on the platform was standing just in front of me... It was ironical that despite she almost pushed me on the platform to be in front of the queue, she still didn't get herself a seat...

And the further realization came at a point when both of us shared an eye contact... Since, I was conservative from the beginning so I felt indifferent and awkward... I somehow was unable to avoid the eye contact as coincidentally she was also doing the same...

 (Travelling in a Delhi ‘Metro’, you can always encounter the youths commuting with their partners and then there are people who travel alone. These are mostly the youths who are there on the social networking websites flaunting their relationship status as ‘single’ and are always in search of partners, partners for life... These were the people whom I was able to relate with then as I was also sailing in the same boat those days)

All of a sudden when the heart took in the place of the brain to think, I was already dreaming like the rest. Perhaps, these were the dreams which I wanted to come true. And while the dreams were continuously responding to the thoughts possessed within, I didn't realize when I get completely involved into it... I was thinking about something when this girl asked,
She: - Hey!
Me: - (Didn't notice)
She: - Hey, are you listening?
Me: - Oh! I am sorry... Were you saying something?
She: - I wasn't saying anything... Perhaps, was just asking if I have to go to Gurgaon, which ‘Metro’ station should I deboard at?
Me: - Which sector do you want to go to?
She: - I don’t remember the exact sector number but I need to go to phase-III...
Me: - OK... I think you should deboard at Huda City Center...

And while this conversation was going on, ‘Metro’ stopped at an interchangeable station. As usual, habitual Delhi commuters came inside to grab the seat unaware of the fact that there was not even a single seat vacant in the entire coach then... Such a heavy crowd it was... It flooded the coach like the herd of animals... After the crowd settled in and I got some ‘opportunity’ to breathe, I composed myself and tried standing on both the feet... Post this; I saw her standing just beside me...

‘More close but not closer enough’

 Still there was a lot to be said and a lot to be done... And this was perhaps the only time when I was happy with the crowd of Delhi Metro... No matter how firm you stand at your place but the unusual pushing practice which normally most of us generally encounter in ‘Metro’ was instrumental in reducing the distance between people. (Laugh)
And while this was happening, she again broke the unwanted silence...
She: - Hey!
Me: - Yes...
She: - For how long do I have to stand like this?
Me: - Till the time you wants to!! (Laugh)
She: - (Smiled) What?
Me: - Oh! I mean till this crowd doesn't deboard from the ‘Metro’, you will have to stand unfortunately...
She: - Alright... Well you must be aware which station witness more number of people deboarding the train?
Me: - Yeah! The next one or I believe the one after that...
She: - (Quiet) the next one only!!!
Me: - Yes... You seem to be sad. Aren't you?
She: - No, nothing like that. By the way, what’s your name?
Me: - Oh! I am ‘Shantanu, Shantanu Sunil Saxena’... and you?
She: - Wow! You have a different name... Well, I am Vasavi and I quite liked the way you pronounced your name... ‘Shantanu, Shantanu Sunil Saxena’... (Laugh)
Me: - (Laugh) Oh! I usually say like that only...
She: - Okay, so where do you have to deboard?
Me: - I need to deboard one station prior to the station you will deboard at... Anyways, where are you going?
She: - Oh! I am going for an interview... And, where are you heading by the way?
Me: - Well, I am going to my office...

And suddenly, the station on which the crowd had to deboard at arrived and the complete lot deboarded over there... While, most of the people were walking out of the ‘Metro’, both of us searched for a seat and luckily we got one but this time both of us were sitting in front of each other unfortunately... It seemed as if there was a lot to say and a lot more to talk about but we couldn't do so... Now, it was more of silence between us but we still were staring at each other... Waiting for a single moment to break the silence, the moment didn't come... We couldn't even share the contact numbers by then...

 And finally the station arrived on which I had to deboard... I was left with no options but to bid a silent adieu to her... I didn't know then that it eventually would be the last goodbye to her... As the station arrived, I stood with a sad smile on my face which was hiding many emotions and thoughts in it... I wanted to say a lot to her but couldn't... She also seemed to possess the same set of emotions...  And when I was about to deboard, I heard a whisper as if someone called me... I turn around to look if someone actually called... I saw her waiving the hand and bidding a bye to me... She looked equally sad with the separation and there was a hope in her eyes that we might meet again probably... I did the same and moved out of the train... After deboarding it, looked inside to see her... She was teary eyed yet smiling and was glancing at me... And soon, the train started moving... Gradually, it disappeared within few moments... For some time, I wasn't able to compose myself but then I realized that she wasn't there anymore, and waiting for her on the platform wasn't a wise decision either... And also, it is something which usually happens in Delhi ‘Metro’. Then, I recalled the incidents with which I was relating to earlier and the people who usually encounter this...

Composing myself, I moved on... In the evening, on my journey back to home my eyes were searching for her face and were eager to see her in the crowd... But this didn't happen... Neither then nor after that... And we couldn't see each other since then...
 I came back to home but that day it was really tough for me to forget and I believe it would have been for her as well... I still have all the memories afresh for the Day 3 journey when I lived that “Life in a Metro”. But, thankfully, I don’t look for any more faces now...

Till this day, I had been through different experiences of life, a “Life in a Metro”...

Gathering all the three days experiences, all I can say is...

  Things happen in life for a reason, but it is always better to move ahead without bothering about the reasons of the incidents happened...